This is a very strange post for me to write, I have been sitting here for a while wondering where to start, so I am just going to start.
Last month I wrote a post about my friend's baby shower which I catered. I wrote that although I loved it, that I was in no way qualified to be a caterer. Well, somehow, one event turned into two, turned into seven and now it would seem I have found myself turning my passion into a career path.
I have started Clover & Sage, a creative and organic approach to catering.
Catering is not something I ever thought I would do, it's not exactly like cooking dinner for friends at home, but I seem to have a somewhat natural approach to it, have found I am pretty good at it (though I still have a lot to learn), and the best part: I. LOVE. IT.
I get to connect with people through their tastebuds, make people happy, be creative (menu design is so much fun for me) work for myself, work with food, read about food, shop for food, learn about food, teach others about food, live and breathe food and work with clients to create something hopefully wonderful, yummy and special for their event. It's my dream job. I am not in any way saying it's easy ~ it's exhausting work ~ but it's so very rewarding for me at the same time.
This is blowing my mind for a few reasons and I have to try and explain why...
~ When Denise and I went to see the psychic in February she said something to me that I can no longer ignore. She gently told me that I would remain in a healing phase until around the time of my birthday and then an unexpected career path would present itself and I would follow this path successfully for the next 18 years of my life. She told me it wasn't the career path I was expecting and around my birthday it would be revealed.
~ I catered my first baby shower for my dear friend, Dianna, as both a gift to her and a distraction for myself, having lost my second pregnancy in December. Her shower was June 23rd. Nine days before my birthday.
~ During this time I was also offered a big time corporate dream job with the company I have been employed with for the past couple years that came with a bigger paycheck, growth and advancement and would have me once again working in the film industry, an industry I am quite familiar with. The catch? Well, it's a corporate job where I would be chained to a desk 8+ hours a day with an hour commute which meant giving up working from home. Two years ago I would have jumped on it. Today, in this moment, I am a different person with different priorities. Do I take the safe, fancy corporate job, or do I take a giant leap of faith and follow my dream of being a business owner at long last? The choice actually wasn't that easy for me, I struggled, but once I made the decision and decided to commit to it, everything felt so right and started to fall into place. I had heard the universe screaming at me for a while and the moment I made the decision, things became, I don't know, calmer and more peaceful somehow, albeit insanely busy. That is the only way I can think to describe it at this moment. Almost instantly opportunities began to open up and people (angels) started to appear on my path to help me.
~ I have had both a psychic and a channeler tell me that close to forty years of age the artist inside me would be ready, and eager, to emerge. The channeler told me he saw me writing in a cabin in the woods. The psychic told me that while she couldn't pinpoint the career, she saw creativity, teaching and inspiration. They both told me that my 40th would be my year to shine and it would all come together. I don't know what to think of all this exactly because they also both said things that didn't happen, but I am choosing to see the light in the message and explore where this journey leads me. Oh, they also both told me that children are present in my life. Two to be exact.
~ Speaking of two. Its a number that has always held great significance for me. In addition to being one of two of my favorite numbers (my other favorite number is 11), I was born on the second day of the month. I married my husband on the second day of the month. We dated for two years before he proposed marriage. We were engaged for another two years before we walked down the aisle. Jimmy and I talked for years about opening a restaurant together called Indeuces where everything would be served in deuces for two (or more) people to share. At this point in my life I have lost two pregnancies. Clover & Sage is comprised of two words. Both of these words represent herbs. One represents the sweet and one the savory. They also represent the natural, and organic vision of my business. They are also the names I chose for my two little souls. This new venture is for them, Clover and Sage, as well as the future children we shall one day have.
Both pregnancies, while short-lived, brought me so much joy and even though I couldn't keep them, so much of the beautiful and positive change in my life would not be happening were it not for them ~ this new career path, the ways they have changed me as a person, as a future mother and, of course, the beautiful souls I have been connected to as I continue on this amazing journey. I can't help but remain grateful. You inspire me and keep me lifted. Thank you.
If I could come cook for all of you, I would.