photo by denise andrade ~ boho photo
"We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned,
so as to accept the life that is waiting for us."
although there are certainly days where i have my blinders on and miss cues because i am focused on something else, some days my eyes are wide open and i listen to the cues that are being sent my way.
yesterday was one of those days. i picked up an issue of the Oprah magazine that i had purchased a couple weeks ago but hadn't read yet. I randomly picked a page and landed on an article by Martha Beck called The Truth About Magic Lists.
while i am somebody who normally loves lists, i notice i haven't been keeping any lately. i never wrote down my mondo beyondo list and while there are definitely some things i wish to manifest in my life this year, i haven't written them down, only visualized and imagined them.
later that afternoon i ended up catching the last half of Oprah's show where the topic was people whose lives had changed because of the Secret, or the Law of Attraction. Martha Beck was discussing her article that i had just finished reading and the part that i caught was focused on letting go which really struck a chord with me.
it seemed to be the step i was missing when it came to manifesting what i desired in my life. lately i feel that i have been focusing so much on what i can or can't control that i have forgotten all about letting go and just being open to receive.
this has spilled into many areas of my life: my fledgling businesses, my pregnancy, my home, and because i was feeling anything but in control of these areas (mostly placing blame on the construction that was happening) i started to downward spiral. i quickly realized that placing blame was not working for me.
yesterday one of the panel on Oprah asked a guest to simply write down a couple of things he wished to manifest on a couple of post-it notes. i was sprung into action, immediately finding my juicy colored post-it's and writing down on each one what i wished to manifest: thriving business, a happy, healthy daughter, a safe and comfortable home, filling up my empty and waiting canvases with the paint they are crying for, a tribe of creative & soulful kindreds. i hung them up above my computer so i could see them each day, connect them to what is happening in my life, and then i immediately let them go.
what does that mean, to let something go? i know it means different things for all of us. i know for me i have been guilty of hanging on to something i want, thinking i can control the outcome and make it happen all by myself and then becoming frustrated when it doesn't come to fruition. i now realize that by hanging on to that energy as tightly as i was like a child who doesn't want to share their toys, i was not allowing the energy to go out into the world and seek out the resources and answers i need to come back my way. i had already painted the picture and wasn't willing to look at another version of that image. like the quote above, i wasn't willing to let go of the life i imagined so i may step into the one that was waiting for me.
letting go also spills into the physical. every time i purge clutter that begins to collect i notice it just frees up space for new and positive energy to find it's way in. an example of this is a couple weekends ago my mom came to pick up the majority of our many books and bookshelves to make space for our baby. now that we have created this space for her, it is now being filled by family and friends with items she will need upon her arrival.
letting go means allowing the universe to do it's job so you can clear a space to simply receive. understanding that the thoughts we put out there are the actions which come back to us. what letting go doesn't mean is releasing something and kicking back on the couch. things like simple post-its and elaborate vision boards and lists simply keep your goals clearly in front of you while you make the connection in your life as your thoughts and actions become real.
the moment i asked for these which i desired, i immediately released my attachment to them. i felt a lightness and was inspired to make some lists. jimmy and i have really been wanting to leave our apartment and buy a home to call our own. this has become increasingly important to us the past few months. last night, while cozy in bed with our kitty kat, we made a list of what we wanted in our home. it was as detailed as we could get and not just about the paint colors and appliances, but as importantly the spirit and energy of the home, as well as being a safe haven for our little girl to grow and be nurtured. we came up with about 50 items and are going to add another 50 tonight.
sometime last night i had a dream that i was sitting cross-legged in a field and there was a pile of large flowers next to me. each of these flowers represented something i wished for in my life, and in my dream i would pick up a flower, look at it, hold it up and gently let it go. i watched each flower float far and away up into a sun-filled sky. it was magical.
i woke up this morning feeling light and inspired about releasing all this energy and found some wonderful emails in my inbox this morning. among them: one from a friend who is starting a vision board for her exciting new business, and i decided to join her. another from a friend who has released some attachment to a question and is now receiving answers. i then had lunch with another friend who is starting her own business where there is a possibility of us working together on a couple aspects which has inspired me to take action on my own businesses and let go of blaming the construction crews and get back to work.
i'm seeing good things coming my way.
what have you let go of lately?