Summer is usually not my favorite season, mostly because it can be opressively hot in Los Angeles. To be clear, when I lived in places like Alaska summer was welcomed with open arms. But mostly I am not one who thrives in heat. In fact heat makes me lazy and irritable. I tend to come alive under a blanket of clouds and any opportunity to wear a scarf.
I am starting to notice that Mia takes after me in this way. Isabella seems quite comfortable being warm, but Mia will always seek the shade and cries when the sun hits her face. It's a wild honor to continuously discover the differences and similarities that we share.
This season has felt different. I've been grateful for the mild weather we have had this summer (feeling for those not on the west coast this season) and am, dare I say, enjoying summer immensely this year of which I know Isabella and Mia are a large part of. There is no lounging in the heat when two active girls are hanging off your limbs, filled with wild energy and a deep sense of discovery. There has been much physical activity, living, play and a healthy dose of gratitude. There has also been much shedding, releasing, forgiving and laying down of swords on my part. For the first time in a long time I have come to a place of acceptance, movement and trust and I'm feeling the positive effects of this kind of surrender.
This forward motion has also manifested into other areas of my life. In the wake of a rocky transition, I have been busy birthing some ideas and long-held dreams I have been carrying for years and am excited to share them soon. I am truly, and finally, understanding what it means to get out of my own way.
I've outgrown this space where I currently house my words and images - my heart in many ways. My family, my business, my aesthetic has evolved and I haven't taken the time to reflect these areas of growth on my current blog. Much like I've outgrown the physical space where I reside, I've also outgrown what this space represents to me. While manifesting a new home for my family that better fits our needs, I am also currently creating a website that will do the same. I truly can't wait to share more. The space I am building already feels like a cozy home I can happily root into and have it reflect more of who I am.
As a working mama of two, I know it's a constant challenge to create time and space for our individual needs and dreams, aside from my dream of being a mama. Most days I don't feel like I juggle any of it well, but I am also coming to terms that I don't need to perfect my juggling skills either, or that it all needs to happen in a day. Trying to perfect this act only pushes me closer to crazy. It's not about offering that which is perfect, it's about offering that which is true. I find that true beauty lies in all that is imperfect anyway.
In fact, I think it's important to share that I have been gradually building my website while sitting on pillows on my bathroom floor in the late night hours. It's the only room in our home that has a door and is therefore serving as my creative birth center. Letting go of the limiting idea that the only possible way I could create anything of value was to be in a sunny studio space filled with art and vision boards (inspiring as that may be) is all part of how I am getting out of my own way.
I am taking a late summer break from writing on my blog as a means to free up some time to focus on this next phase of the journey. In the meantime, I am taking a page from Susannah's August Break book and will be sharing daily photos of what our summer has been shaping into until further notice.
My two themes for this summer have been about awakening and then stepping into possibility. My hope is to continue carrying this theme into all the seasons to come.
I hope you enjoy the daily photos for a bit and I will be back at some point with the link to my new online home. See you soon. xo