i took this photo a couple weeks ago. it was right after a good twenty minutes (though it felt like 3 hours) of both of girls crying inconsolably, each of them needing me for different reasons, each doing their best to outcry the other and even more upset if my attention went to one over the other. in these heightened moments when both of their needs are being unmet i never know what to do and i usually just allow them to cry openly while holding them, sometimes singing softly, sometimes trying to just breathe deeply to keep my own sanity intact. sometimes it works. othertimes i need to put myself in a time-out.
after the release comes the rest. loud cries eventually led to soft whimpers and we all slept together for a couple hours, waking up, smiling and ready to get back to life.
it seems to be the same story here. the camera on my iPhone is not working and is not fixable according to the fine folks at apple. i don't want to purchase another iPhone until the next version comes out. at first i was having some very big feelings about it -- how would i take daily photos? how will i get my instagram fix? how will i post daily photos here? omg omg omg! but in the couple weeks since it's been broken, i am now able to just rest.
it's a good time for a break. this will be the last post until i announce my new home.
if you are having some big feelings over something, i offer you sound hope that the time for sweet rest will soon come.