I sit here this evening, after a very long day, writing this post with a gluten-free beer and a twist of irony. February came and went with a blur and ended with both of my children catching whatever bug was going around for a solid week.
When I emerged from our sick bay it was a few days from March and I realized half the posts I wanted to publish for February were still drafts in my folder. My plan to finish writing and post some of them this morning was canceled when my younger daughter spent the morning throwing up for no apparant reason and comforting her was all I could focus on. It looks like back into our sick bay is where I return.
It would seem surrender might be the natural choice for this month's word, but I'm still feeling my original choice for this month which is... abundance.
True, I spent the better part of this morning covered in an abundance of vomit, but the silver lining part of that story is that I have set my life in such a way that being available to both of my daughters, whenever they need me, is doable.
This is a dream I carried for years, as well as a promise I made to them before they were born. And though this dream looks different than I originally imagined, I am recognizing that it is another dream of mine that is slowly being manifested. I am truly starting to believe that our long held dreams are our birthrights and the only thing that keeps us from making them our reality, is ourselves.
When we think of the word of abundance, we often think in terms of financial abundance. And yes, that is a very real and large part of it, but what I am also wanting to be guided by and aware of this month is all the other ways abundance shows up in my life.
Vomit aside, I am currently feeling and witnessing an abundance of support, community, hope and possibility for my bigger dream and larger vision. Part of this vision will be to soon have a garden on some land in which to plant and harvest an abundance of produce and connection to food. It also includes some exciting avenues and opportunities to expand Clover & Sage in alignment with my larger dream of contribution and creation. In fact, the phrase in clover literally means abundance, it's right there in my chosen business name.
The freshness of spring finds us this month as well and will soon bring an abundance of new life, bursts of color and the return of light.
My firstborn, Isabella, turns five years old this month (five!) and I easily become overwhelmed with emotion when I begin to reflect on her life so far and the abundance of pure joy, life lessons, soul healing and total love expansion her presence brings.
Life is so brilliant and rich no matter how much money you have in the bank. This month is about exploring how plentiful our lives truly are, exactly as they are, in this moment.